memories

amidst the silence of this long night, i stand

watching the beauty of this full moon light!

jealous of her relationship,

her love brightening her all night!

the tide recedes, but leaves behind the mark

echoes never fading, some times unaware;

old photographs, love letters can bring a smile

nothing brings back the hour!

i miss those conversations, the way you made me desire

i miss you fighting with me on who love who more!

you are miles away. but your fragrance lingers in my breathe

i wish you would call just to ask about my day.

the alluring rays of moon reflecting on the pool

the drizzle creating small waves

no matter how hard the nature tries

it just isn’t as magical without you beside me.

love, would you think about me, when I am gone?

just like that

SP showed their metal in UP polls!!

today is celebration time in Lucknow. I am not a die heart supporter of SP, but I genuinely wish I was in Lucknow today!

I wish i was part of the celebration that's going to happen In Lucknow today!

A day in your name, love!

Another Valentine's day has arrived. The air is warmer and it should be - the cupids are all around dancing to the tunes of love! Red has conquered the streets of blogsville, facebook and twitter. A visit to Archies is still a mind blowing experience. Think about it! How ever modern our thoughts are, what ever age we live in; a greeting card delivered at your door step, carrying a few words from your loved one - in ink, hand written!! It definitely is the most valuable gift you could get. And if it gifts a drop of tear, nothing like that! Its a blessing if you have some one to send a card to. Its a dream come true, if you have some one who sends you a card.

I cannot but smile when I see the rush in the telephone network. The message packs are deactivated on the special day. You have to pay if you have to convey your love on a valentine's day! And why not, the day is special for sure. Of the 365 days, you have one day to tell 'i love you'. 364 days to be busy and 1 day to express your love, special day indeed. I do not believe in life after death. You live now. If you have to forget your feelings, if you have to stay away from the ones who matter to you the most, if you cannot hold your loved one's hand once and tell him/her how much he/she mean to you, if you cant express - is your life worth living? is all the rush worth the pain? At times a hug is all that matters. Your bank balance, that expensive car, the gifts, the properties, nothing could soothe your soul the way a warm hug does. Nothing could make you feel secure the way "I am there with you" could make. Nothing could make you feel wanting the way holding your hands would make. But who cares? We have a job and the firm pays you for being away from your loved ones. You earn to buy a phone; fails to send a message - who wins?

Love is a strange feeling, ain't it? I have always noticed a similarity in the behaviour of love among the crowd. The two F words! not the one your dirty mind is thinking :P You never Forget; you always Forgive. There is no ego in love. There is no competition. In lust - yes, but definitely not in love. You might feel like you did the worst mistake by letting this relationship happen, you might hate yourself for being in the situation, you might feel that you are not getting what you deserve, you might feel like shouting at him/her, you might feel like walking away a thousand times. But one smile, one pretty smile and you are back on track. No complaints, no hard feeling. Love is amazing.

What makes this day special for me? You do! I am in love. 

I am in love with the excitement I had in my voice when I first talked to you. I am in love with the fear that shadowed my mind when I did not get any messages from you after the first call - "din she like me?". God knows that i was not prepared for the future :) I am in love with the smile I had each time I saw your name in my inbox. Each precious time. I am in love with the craziness I had for that unseen face and unknown attitude. I am in love with those small conversations we had once in a blue moon. Did you know that Ive tried my best to impress you every time and thought Ive failed each time cos you never gave a positive smile? :)

My dad could never figure out how could I ever fall in love with a face I have never seen :P How could I? He doesn't know how much I miss the happiness I had packing my bags to meet you for the first time! The heart beats were faster than I've imagined. Those few moments, I wish I could have saved it some were safe to be experienced when ever i want to. Some moments just slip from your life, lost for ever.

I am in love with the morning chill of the day I was to meet you for the first time. I am love with the rising sun, with the old lady who showed me the way to the place we were supposed to meet! I am in love with each of those minute moments which confessed to me how much you mean to me. I am in love with the smile I saw in your face when our eyes met for the first time - that frame would always be cherished. always. I am in love with the softness of your fingers, the first touch of your skin! I am in love with the nervousness I had that moment.

My life changed in fraction of a second. There was shades of red painted in the darkest corners of my heart. There were songs sung on the silent hours of my day. There were tears to moisten the hardest pain of distance. Love, you made it so special that it was easy to fall in love with myself! it was easy to fall in love with the beauty of a relationship built with the touch of two hearts. the magic was your smile. no matter how often I say it, you should still hear it from me - you have the most beautiful smile. A smile which could make me feel warm in an instance. A smile which assures me of your love. No wonder I've captured that smile all around me. You make me want to live.

Its hard to even think of leaving your hand, but I cant see you sad. I cannot see you hurt yourself. I would always smile, you know that I have this 'smiling disorder syndrome' :P As long as I have memories, I would be in love. As long as there is love, I would smile. I would sing. You have no idea about the magic you spelled on me. Thank you.

Happy Valentine's Day love.

i miss you

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the moon looks alluring today

stars glorifying her beauty

the chill in the winter breeze

comforting my moist eyes.

the light from the search tower

hides the darkness from me

silence of the night intensifies my breathe

the race against my heartbeat is on.

recorded messages, photographs

her presence in my life is sealed

not even she can steal her from me

my wall, my desk, she claims all space!

i crave for a hug, the warmth was missing

she was teasing me, talking to me, in my laptop

i re-lived my memories, technology helps

but how would I feel those soft lips again?

she talks to me everyday

i am addicted to her voice

the sun doesn't set for me

unless I hear her say 'I love you'

have you ever fought with your self

to determine if you are fine or not?

have you ever tightened your grip

in fear of loosing some one in crowd?

seeking re-assurance should be a crime

why else would pain be correlated with it?

why else would this night deny me sleep?

why else would anxiety fail my trust?

the moon looks alluring today

stars glorifying her beauty

the chill in winter breeze soothes me

i know you are mine, I just miss you!