സ്‌മൃതിപഥം

 

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നിൻ നിശ്വാസമിന്നെൻ മനസ്സിൽ പ്രണയം വിടർത്തി

പ്രണയം നിൻ മിഴികളിൽ കവിത രചിച്ചു 

കവിതയീ ലോകത്തിലിളം കാറ്റായി ഒഴുകി 

ഇളം കാറ്റിലെൻ മനം നിൻ നിശ്വാസം തേടി

Needs

 

Its funny how relationships add up..

the one you seek doesnt seek you

you dont seek the one who seeks you..

you dont seem to notice the eyes on you 

yet the eyes looking away gets all attention

you loose the one yearning to hear you,

spending time with the one who doesnt notice you!

its funny how relationships add up.. 

eyes dont seem to see the obvious

mind dont seem to sense the evident

resentful is how we feel

how do we make ourselves content?

Madness. Love.

 

I hate to invade your thoughts

muddled, mystified by my emotions

but i wish to leave a sign

a warm inscription of love.

Together in our dream

I long for a retake..

when our hugs meant the world

The smoke around us 

building our walls stronger.

The feelings never give or take

but from within..

worthiness is just a perception

beautiful imaginations implored

Smiles summon memories

the deep impression of want..

thirst for the lost relationship

lifeless eyes, yearning for that kiss.

scared to acknowledge

disregarding the obvious!

An illusion or not,

falling in and out of memories

with the forgotten ghosts of past

It stands out, when its quiet

Alone, pulling out to the world i invent

breathing my lament, no one to judge..

I miss the warmth of your skin,

the kiss that was never given.

the stories we’ve never shared

the long roads we never took.

I could look into your eyes and dream

sleep is just a feeling, 

wrapped in the comfort of your hug.

Every time i express my love

the insane fear of loosing you sinks in

The sensation cant be relived,

But in that pain, you are engraved.

Forever.

Caged, Not anymore!

 

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The more i strive to be with you

The more my heart breaks

I made a wreck of my nose

I hit it with my phone..

the anger, the anguish, 

the misery of neglect..

Shivering, I cry shades of innuendoes

tears washing myself, away from me.

There was a time, not so long ago

a newborn had cried, scared of her surroundings.

A man held her with a certain strength

confused, but convinced that his girl was special!

I was shaken by a dream, Dad

shivering in agony, i wiped my sweat

I saw you slip in the darkness of the night

projecting the reflections of my own inceptions.

I felt a hand on by shoulder, a concerned sound

Can you blame me for being attracted

to someone who remind me of you, Dad?

I feel like a bird with a broken wing

ugly, unable to hold myself or fly

I feel trapped, reluctant to move

the fear that I'll fall, gripping my veins

I hide my truth, put up a brave face

but world, know that I die. day and again.

Today I met someone who held me tight

let me re-discover, forgive my fear

I realise I am scared, tired and alone

I realise I miss you and will always do.

I wont hold myself from the thought anymore, 

instead I'll clasp it tight and let myself grieve

I'll struggle, but i'll not fall! I promise

I'll stop letting my life slip away!