Loss

She opened her eyes to a new morning, a morning which could change her world. Her favorite pink teddy bear was missing.  She lived in a room stuffed with toys and every toy tried its best to see her smile. She was such a sweet heart! Of all the toys, she loved that pink teddy – let’s call him Keith. She held his hand all through the day and hugged him when ever she felt low. Keith had seen her in smiles and in tears. Keith knew, like other toys did, that she looked gorgeous with her smile on. Yet he decided to gift her tears!

She missed Keith. She missed herself. For a moment she forgot that there were other toys in her room. She was desperately searching for Keith. She was crying!

The doggie barked to get her attention. She chose to ignore. The monkey did tricks to see her smile. She threw him to a corner. The joker clapped till his hands were in pain. She unwounded him and threw him under her cot. The train whistled and moved around her. Her feet crushed the engine to death!

Some toys were scared by her act. Some were hurt and some cursed her change. They left the room leaving her behind, crying while she searched for Keith. Some chose to stay and bring her back, and she chose to shut herself inside the virtual walls around her! She was furious, screaming out the pain. She wished Keith was there to hold her hands. She believed him to be the only one who could feel her pain. The monkey wondered so did the others! “He gifted her tears and left her in pain. Yet she says only he would understand.” They felt dejected, yet they stayed.

They knew she would sleep again. They knew she would need them all when she wakes up - either to make her smile or to cry out her pain. And yes, she did. Days passed and she opened her eyes to another morning. She saw broken pieces of plastic shattered through out the room, fur flying high, her wounded friends in the darkness of the room. She ran to them and cried her heart out. If only those tears could heal them!

The doggie barked again, but his voice choked. The monkey tried tricks with his broken hands. The joker clapped but she saw him limping. The train whistled but failed to reach her. She had them all back – wounded and hurt. The only thought that remained was this: Were the losses worth it?

whispers of love

if only i could see the pain in your eyes

if only i could hear the fear in your breathe

the shadows of unseen blinds me through

the cry of the unknown deafens my soul!

if only i could feel your varied heartbeats

if only i could listen to those hushed whispers

how i wish to hear those whispers, to feel your breathe

to hold you close and feel your heartbeats in mine!

if only i could wipe those tears from your cheeks

if only i could bring back the smile on your lips

my eyes are wet, but ill not cry today

you are my strength and ill not loose hope!

if only i could kiss away your pain

it hurts to see my princess weep

the tears wither my skin,

as i lie here, cold and dead!

disclaimer: its just random thoughts put on paper. got nothing to do with my presence. i am very much alive :P

welcoming year 2009

Alright guys, so I saw the first sunlight of Year 2009!

Happy New Year to you all.

I never had a plan on how to welcome year 2009. Good for me that I was working on 31st morning and from office I made the plans! So you guys know how busy I was at work yesterday :) We had 9 people including me who was all green for a party. The battle was to choose a destination. There were many parties happening in the city and among them we voted for Nirvana 2009.

Excess Club and Lounge brought alive the magic of Buddha Bar, Paris, in a dazzling New Year’s eve spectacular – Nirvana 2009. Showcasing top-flight international entertainers such as DJ Ravin from Buddha Bar, Paris, and DJ Gino from Paris, an opening set by Hyderabad’s very own sultan of spin DJ Manish, breath-taking lighting and edgy design.Large projections screens, lasers, animated fireworks and confetti blasts where said to be added attractions! The party was hosted by Novotel.

Novotel, Hyderabad

There were no second thought for me cos i loved the music of Ravin and Karunesh. The next hurdle was getting tickets! Many parties had already closed thoer counters due to heavy rush. And we say recession hit us! Some parties increased their ticket rates by upto 50%! The online booking for nirvana was closed. Thank my status of employment, we got tickets through corporate booking :)The party was supposed to start at 8 and we reached there by 10. It was a slow crowd and people were just coming in.

DJ Ravin

Ravin was born on 11th of July, 1966, in the Indian Ocean, on Mauritius Island. He began working in a music shop in Paris, which cultivated his interest in dance music and club culture.Ravin soon began to play at private parties and at the famous French club "The Rex" where he became the resident Dj on the weekends. With the help of Laurent Meuer from "Le Bay", Ravin was given the opportunity to play at the infamous Wiz Bombino parties. There, he met Claude Challe, the owner of "Les Bains Douches", one of hottest Parisian nightspots in the eighties, who introduced him to Electronic Fusion and World Music.After having made his debut with Claude Challe on records such as "The Flying Carpet", "Loverdose" and "Nirvana Lounge", Ravin arrived at the "Buddha Bar" in Paris in 1997 where he immediately felt at home. There, in collaboration with Claude Challe again, the first two "Buddha Bar" compilations were conceived. Ravin went on the produce Buddha Bar III.

The Buddha bar mezzanine, enlaced by 18th century

style wrought-iron balustrades, looks out over the dining area where the gigantic Buddha – the bar’s namesake - sits serenely enthroned.The best of our DJs distill their musical selections to infuse your evenings in this paradise with an indescribable sensuality. The experience is summed up brilliantly in the famous Buddha Bar compilations.The Buddha Bar series was Created by the DJ Claude Chall. The series continues with different DJ's including DJ Ravin, Sam Popat, David Visan.

The party was extremely good. We had amazing laser works, deafening sound systems and projector screens which captured every happy soul! The mood was right to welcome another year. I floated though the trance music and the laser works had magical effects. I was high even before i took my first peg :) There were artificial fireworks for welcoming the new year. We laughed, danced and drank for 4 hours. The party was indeed good.

There were lot of laughter around. People dancing to unknown tunes forgetting their pains, sorrows, tensions and frustrations. People just let out their concerns and embraced this "momentary" life of happiness!

People danced. Danced till their feet burned in pain. No one bothered to look who is watching, no one bothered to check if he/she is looking weird the way they are dancing, no one bothered to check their steps. They just moved their feet, jumped in merry, shouted, sang, laughed at their own jokes.I felt as if I was in another world, a world full of happiness, a world where everyone said "hi" to every other being, a world where everyone smiled at each other, a world without ego. When the clock hit 12, many came and wished me a happy new year, many danced with me - people whom i never knew, people whom i may not see again. How easy does our life become when we are not in our senses! Alcohol many a times teaches us how to give selfless love! Many only see the negative side of the drink!

Girls who were conscious of the way they look the way they talk and the way they walk suddenly forgot the standard rules! Everyone was on their own world. Their own secure world, i should say! No one had the fear of a stranger's presence near them, no one bothered to scan the eyes around who might be watching them, no one even bothered to secure those costly sandals and purse! All they had in mind was music and a smile! They danced to the tune, screamed their happiness and cuddled their friends. If only they could feel this happiness and security through out their life!

As the party winded up, I could see many faces resting on their partners shoulders. Many eyes were wet. I could only smile! Another session of tears and confessions! Look at how people change when they are drunk/extremely happy. They just forget the differences, they forget their ego, they forget the fights. They just let go. Emotions - people simply cry it out! And how much relieved both of them become once the dust settles down. I would say occasions like this should happen at least half yearly. Occasions where one can forget themselves and break free. Occasions where in one could shout without being conscious! Our busy life demands dance floors like this. And people say its luxury or simply waste of money! Don't they see the good in it or is it just the drunken studs and their misbehaviour that they see?

My New Year celebration ends here. I wish everyone out here a wonderful New Year. A year full of happiness, music and dance. Let go your worries, cos they only increase your strain, cholesterol and BP. No good for you. If you say smoking is injurious to health, so are worries. So smile today cos your yesterdays are gone. Your tomorrow needs the healthy you. Let your today stop frowning and start smiling. Broken promises or relationships were stories of yesterday. Let the lessons learnt strengthen you. Tear drops are gift of God. Do not waste them for reasons unworthy. Love you all. Happy New Year 2009.