Saturday, November 8, 2008

were are you?

i tried to sleep. i felt all alone. darkness all around me.

How I wish I had some one near, who would kiss my forehead and heal all my pains. Some one who would hold my hands and show me the world. Some one whose smile would take away my worries. Some one whose warmth would make me sweat. A kid, a friend, a philosopher, a lover, a cook, a financial adviser - all in one. A support which I really need. Some one who make me realize my inner self. The one who would prove that I was incomplete all this while. My inspiration, my support. I wish you were here today. I need your warm hug!

i tried to sleep. i felt all alone. darkness all around me.


her comment brought grace to my words. thnx Sen.your words are beautiful :

It is darkest before the dawn,
This is known to every doe and fawn,
Hang in there, for god has a plan
For the whole universe and above all for man!
This I believe in for his love is true...
My wish is, may all your dreams come true!!!

- sen


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36 comments:

Yamini Meduri said...

u r need of someone who loves you and who knows u...dont search for them closing your eyes..open them n see...may be they are already near you or atleast some where around

Priya Joyce said...

do u know I was also gonna write a post as such..ahhh! I can understand ur feelings so.

Anil Sawan said...

@dilmainhainpyar: welcome here. i surely have people who loves me all around me. i am lookind for that "someone really special" :-) its as simple as the tag saying "i am back to single and ready to mingle" ;-)

Anil Sawan said...

@priya: great minds think alike :-) i had this weird thought yesterday night, i felt like shit desperate for love. Was too lazy to post it yesterday :-)

vinny said...

hey hey hey..Sawan saar !!
u too, Brutus :) :)
what's happening nowadays?? most of us are in some kinda love-struck, love-hate, single-mingle dilemma ?? all our posts r beginning to think alike, to feel alike, almost smell alike !!
we have turned into deep thinkers n philosophers :)
i am beginning to get a feeling that all of us here are in for a 'Giant Transformation' !!!

True Love will come to you, stop craving for it..then no more your posts would be like this, it will be more like ur previous posts ..that papad fire n ur promise to never fry a papad again !!

Take care, sweets:)

Rajeswari said...

hey sawan...come out! wots happening with u?you have become a moaner or a philospher?oor a moaner turned philosopher?[:P]

Anonymous said...

all in one......one difficult wish:)

Sen said...
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Sen said...

It is darkest before the dawn,
This is known to every doe and fawn,
Hang in there, for god has a plan
For the whole universe and above all for man!
This I believe in for his love is true...
My wish is, may all your dreams come true!!!

Me said...

Wish you luck with the one you are waiting for :)

Stay Happy until love knocks on your door :)

Anil Sawan said...

@vins: wen you realise your self, your needs, you cant stop cribbing. its hard to be not philosophical. every thinking is "deep thinking".. i would surely come out.. dnt worry.. as of now, ive not entered kitchen for long.. once i enter, u wud have more of those papad-like stories :-)

Anil Sawan said...

@scrawler: i am sure u wud understand. i really felt lonely. i might sound stupid, cos i know i am not alone. say that i am desparate, maybe.. but i miss HER!

Anil Sawan said...

@aparna: i am sure all women are all-in-one. you would surely realize it at one point of time. hats off to all you women for the special person you are!

Anil Sawan said...

@sen: unbelievable.. that was an awsome poem! i am editing my post. hope u wnt mind.

Anil Sawan said...

@harshita: that was sweet: thnx dear..

Sen said...

glad you liked it :)

RiĆ  said...

Hope u get what u wish for.....the poem was very beautiful indeed.

Anil Sawan said...

@ria: thnx for that wish. now that i have so many good people around I dnt feel lonely, not always :-) bout the poem, thnx sen! u take care ria.. have fun..

Scattered Thoughts... said...

sawan - I think this is some kind of heart breaking or love searching season going on.

Count me in when speaking about how it feels being lonely at times. Just sitting forever in balcony in long and dark nights, driving alone on equally lonely roads and trying to imagine that special one with closed eyes.. Been there and done that :)

vin - are you in here as well in the s gang :)

sen - awesome poem gurl..hats off to you...

Anil Sawan said...

@scattered thoughts: your words are so true.. "Just sitting forever in balcony in long and dark nights" i just love that!

yeah vins is a sweet hrt, she sure is part of the s gang!

sen would get a coffebite for that if we ever meet :-)

Keshi said...

Sawan I hv felt like this many many times in my life. But I found no one to hug me or be by my side except one person...and thats myself.

Hope u smile again soon :) HUGS!


I dunno abt a God's plan...I really dunno. Cos if he did plan, he planned it all wrong.

Keshi.

Anil Sawan said...

@Keshi: I know its not a lone problem. but its also tru that you would realise the pain only once u feel it! words couldn somehow convey tears :-) i am already smiling! why should I wen I have ppl like you around? its just one of those occasional ups and downs!

I am not an atheist. But I definitely dont wait for "God" to design a plan! If anything that happen is pre planned, then maybe we are all puppets and I dont think we are :-)

how was your weekend?

Keshi said...

Im glad Sawan :)


**I am not an atheist. But I definitely dont wait for "God" to design a plan

same here. I believe in Destiny but I also believe that that has nothing to do with a God's plan.


Keshi.

Sen said...

@ sawan, I am on a diet after Diwali, change the coffeebite to dudhi juice :))

@ scattered thoughts - yes, this sure is a "heart breaking or love searching season"...might as well admit that am part of that bandwagon...and thanks... the poem just happenned...guess pain and poetry go hand in hand :)

Anil Sawan said...

@Keshi: :-)

did you happen to read this any time?

http://ruffledsoul.blogspot.com/2008/08/destiny.html

Anil Sawan said...

@sen: ive got no idea what a dudhi juice is! maybe i could consider giving "zero sugar diary milk lite" :-)

Scattered Thoughts... said...

sawan - told you, been there done that so experience bolta hai bhai :)

sen - stop watching "aastha" channel and baba ramdev. dudhi over coffee.. uhh.. too much buddy..

sawan - this is for you, a recipe for making dudhi juice :)

http://www.ramdevyoga.net/2008/10/benefits-of-loki-lauki-white-gourd-doodhi-sabzi-ghia-kaadu/

Scattered Thoughts... said...

about heart breaking - when we were in college, we happened to make a club called "FOSLA", that is "Frustrated One Sided Lovers' Association"

guess its time to make some thing like that again.. not necessarily FOSLA but some thing similar :)

Anil Sawan said...

@scatteres thoughts: ah, dudhi is another name for loki?? that link was sure of help.. Sen you got your juice :-)

I am definitely not frustrated cos of one - sided love. the reason for frustration is that there is no love :-( one-sided bhi chalega.. i am simply not falling in love :-(

Sen said...

@ sawan... thank u... thank u!!!

@ scattered thoughts...eeewww...I am not a Baba Ramdev aur Aastha type of person...I have been told of the medicinal benefits of boiled dudhi...thats all:))

FOSLA, indeed !! :))

Anil Sawan said...

@Sen, its a pleasure. Ans its good to see your page back to life!

Keshi said...

will do soon. tnxx Sawan!

Keshi.

Anonymous said...

i have tears in my eyes reading this.. :( :( :(

Anil Sawan said...

keshi, thnx :)

Anil Sawan said...

kajal, ayyoda :( now smile , this was written looong back :)

Anonymous said...

I am here! I am here! :D

These look like OLDEN days now,doesn't it?