Saturday, October 18, 2025

half a dream

 


Between our laughs,

a hush lingers.

You’re here,

but half a dream,

a warmth

I can’t keep.


Maybe it’s fear

that keeps the air still,

or trust

still learning how to breathe.


You wear your calm

like quiet armor,

stitched with old ache,

and hope that never gave up.


And still,

I feel the faint pull

of something unnamed,

a thread between us

that asks for nothing,

yet never lets go.


Because even quiet love

reaches out,

softly, without asking.

And I do.

I reach for you

in the hush between our words.

Sunday, June 9, 2024

The Gang of Kozhikkode

 



In Goa's embrace, where the waves softly play,

I met my dear batch mates on a sun-kissed day.

Beneath the palm's shade and a sky so clear,

New friendships blossomed, and laughter drew near.


The sea whispered secrets as we shared our tales,

With hearts wide open and spirits that sail.

From dawn's gentle light to the moon's tender glow,

In each other's company, our bonds began to grow.


My birthday dawned, a day so bright,

Celebrations sparked in the warm Goa night.

With cake and music, and dancing so free,

Joy flowed around us like the waves of the sea.


Under the stars, with smiles and cheer,

We danced through the night, holding memories dear.

The music played on, our spirits soared high,

In the magic of friendship, time seemed to fly.


As dawn painted colors across the wide sky,

We knew that the moment of farewell was nigh.

Yet in our hearts, a promise did bloom,

To meet once again, and to banish the gloom.


Though we part ways, our hearts stay entwined,

In messages and memories, our ties are defined.

Till we gather once more, another place another time,

We'll cherish these moments, so vivid, so bright.


So here's to the laughter, the dance, and the fun,

To the bonds that we've made, now tightly spun.

We'll meet again soon, under the starry skies,

Till then, dear friends, it's never goodbye.




Thursday, June 6, 2024

the unfinished

 


In shadows deep where ruins weep,

She stood alone, a heart to keep.

With calloused hands and spirit bold,

She dreamt a fort from stories old.


The stones were cracked, the beams decayed, 

Yet in her eyes, the vision stayed.

She toiled through nights, her muscles sore, 

To breathe life into dreams once more.


Against the odds, she braved the storm,

Her will a fire, her heart a norm.

Each brick she laid, each beam she set,

A testament to no regret.


The base was strong, the walls rose high, 

The fort began to touch the sky.

Yet as she worked with hope aglow,

A shadow cast a cruel blow.


They came with words and empty praise,

To steal the work of all her days.

Removed from dreams, her place denied,

She watched as strangers took her pride.


In silent grief, she stepped aside,

The fort stood tall, her silent guide.

Another's name upon its face,

Yet in its stones, her soul, her grace.


She built from ruins, heart unbowed,

Her legacy in every cloud.

For though her hands no longer build,

The fort remains, her spirit filled.





Monday, March 13, 2023

midnight musings

 



memories are all you have left
cues to the growing distance between us
hope in my heart, i smile again
but how do i mend this broken trust? 

your voice still touch my heart
the smile on that face
brightens up the faded times
thoughts of times i wish i could relive
fills my soul with a smile so bright!
i wish it's a bad dream and i wake up now
but how do i mend this broken trust? 

maybe it was a mirage
we never existed the way i perceived
maybe you are hiding an ocean from me
for reasons you believe is best for all.
i wish i could hug you one more time
but how do i mend this broken trust? 



Saturday, March 11, 2023

driven


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deluge of emotions, I cannot contain

endlessly searching for peace within

every drop of tear, a testament to loss

perplexed by the world's fickle nature

tangled up in feelings that won't untie

holding on to memories fading away

insecure, I struggle to trust again!


an endless battle, or so it seems

nowhere to go but forward

gnawing thoughts, linger like a ghost

aching for comfort that never stayed

deep wounds, consumes my soul

i have to keep pace, until I see light.


Thursday, March 9, 2023

forever 🧚‍♀️


drowning the world in your charm, so dear,

enchanted by your every move

enduring love that will never fade

perfection, beyond compare.

the moments we shared, precious and real

healing words, of comforting togetherness

illuminating hope, rejoicing the soul.


as I gaze upon your face

nestled in our friendship, forever

gentle memories of joy, I hold

ardent emotions, I can't erase.

deep in our hearts, may we remain

in love, captivated by our trust!

Tuesday, March 7, 2023

of broken notes and tunes!

 
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drenched in memories, the smiles and the sighs
echoes of hope, playing a symphony
eager heart beats, rushed with anticipation
pondering on moments we shared
time stood still, as I embraced the changes
hurdles we face, with love and grace
i hold on, overwhelming darkness around

alone, trying to find a way through this labyrinth 
numbness spreads within my soul,
glimmers of joy, of love once held
amidst the chaos, a longing that cannot be denied!
delicate and pure, hope shimmers through the dark
intense emotions, playing a symphony!

Tuesday, February 14, 2023

a friend, a valentine!

 

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ensnared in the world,

fear, despair and hatred.

out of a heartfelt rhyme

to phrase what i need to say!


eternity maynot be enough

to voice my wishful fondness

for the laugter we share

and our long conversations


rising in your love, in a way

that makes my heart beat faster

and my feeling is unrequited-

doesnt hurt me anymore!


take me back

to when you loved me

a warm embrace,

is all i wish for.

Friday, December 9, 2022

a treasure, a friend

 




sometimes miracle do happen

when no one will ever imagine.

broken, not ready to heal, 

glad you still tried to mend.


you help the road seem straighter

each day, the sunshine seem brighter

life lessons that flares my sipirt

time with you, gives me peace.


the little things in life,

conversations, an apple tea

it all seems so precious

it all seems right with you.


the best people come unforeseen!

i wonder if you are aware

of the positive vibes youve sprouted

forever and always, without any doubt.


my comfort companion, a safe shelter

a jewel worth a fortune!

filled with warmth and affection 

being with you, heals me!

Tuesday, November 15, 2022

venting

 

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the fumes from the incense sticks
camouflage the anguished air
music and prayers are meant to cure
but how does one heal, from within?

at times the darkness engulfs
anger mine the buried memories
the silhouette of togetherness
withered into the sunken past!

no warmth in sight, no hug to melt
as thoughts gnawing my mind
just silence and shadows
where love used to bloom!

you have to open yourself up to getting hurt again, if you ever want to heal

Sunday, November 13, 2022

forever!

 

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if only words could extol your virtue  
a treasure, protected in my heart!
and 'us', a bond that weathers  
the test of time and persevers

time will weave memories for us
in laughs, tears and long walks.
healing the hearts, we'll grow
reassuring in the darkest of nights!

when the day is hard on you
be assured, you aint alone
keep me in the midst of your mind
close your eyes and i'll be there.

Friday, October 28, 2022

will letting go liberate us?

 

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when uncertainty abounds

and our heart refuses to let go;

taking a leap of faith

is the last thing we are prepared for.


what we hold on to so tightly

is what will liberate us, they say

its a fight, clinging on to what we see

through the reflections of a stained glass!


time is like season, they say

it withers, then heals and bloom again.

wonder how it feels to wait and bloom,

knowing that we have to wither again.


exhausting as it is,

the smile will never fade

the memories are here to stay

engraved with blistering pain.


our mind have a silly tune to it!

it justifies what we feel is right.


we will see darker times

let our love be strong enough

to hold our thoughts together

expectations, uncertainties and fear

let them not drain us down again!


stand up for the love you share,

for, let there be no more heart aches.

Thursday, September 15, 2022

life, love

 


memories being awkward, as a flash

lately, your eyes is all i see

its a matter of perspective, yours evolving around

the relationships you've built over years

somewhere or the other, beyond a fallen wall

we built our dreams, only to fall again!

lying in the bed, crowned with the calm of peace

a touch of frost, haunted with a sense of love

your kiss echoes the essence of my smile

a touch could awake the life in me!

a hint of lust sinking into my lips

beads of sweat build on our skin.

in my arms, i hold you tight

hoping that my dreams would hold you through.

when we met, i knew it was fate,

as i look into your eyes, deep as a sea.

i'd love you forever, now and beyond

intertwined with your soul, i promise i'll not shed a tear!

Saturday, September 10, 2022

Puzzle

 


I ll watch you walk away

For the words cant heal the pain

Numbness around me

An empty version of who I was 

I ll let the puzzle unfold

Piece by piece till it shows

Torn and shattered in a box,

I wish i could make you stay!

Friday, September 2, 2022

intrigue

 

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painting in the canvas of your skin

the gentle touch, leading to blissful art

desires, emotions and fear negotiating

wrapped in my arms, the warmth growing

lips, flavoring my lustful inclinations!

Sunday, December 5, 2021

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Wednesday, August 25, 2021

Needs

 


Its funny how relationships add up..

the one you seek doesnt seek you
you dont seek the one who seeks you..
you dont seem to notice the eyes on you 
yet the eyes looking away gets all attention
you loose the one yearning to hear you,
spending time with the one who doesnt notice you!

its funny how relationships add up.. 

eyes dont seem to see the obvious
mind dont seem to sense the evident
resentful is how we feel
how do we make ourselves content?

Monday, April 12, 2021

Madness. Love.

 



I hate to invade your thoughts

muddled, mystified by my emotions

but i wish to leave a sign

a warm inscription of love.


Together in our dream

I long for a retake..

when our hugs meant the world

The smoke around us 

building our walls stronger.


The feelings never give or take

but from within..

worthiness is just a perception

beautiful imaginations implored


Smiles summon memories

the deep impression of want..

thirst for the lost relationship

lifeless eyes, yearning for that kiss.

scared to acknowledge

disregarding the obvious!


An illusion or not,

falling in and out of memories

with the forgotten ghosts of past

It stands out, when its quiet

Alone, pulling out to the world i invent

breathing my lament, no one to judge..


I miss the warmth of your skin,

the kiss that was never given.

the stories we’ve never shared

the long roads we never took.

I could look into your eyes and dream

sleep is just a feeling, 

wrapped in the comfort of your hug.


Every time i express my love

the insane fear of loosing you sinks in

The sensation cant be relived,

But in that pain, you are engraved.

Forever.




Saturday, March 6, 2021

Caged, Not anymore!

 

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The more i strive to be with you

The more my heart breaks


I made a wreck of my nose

I hit it with my phone..

the anger, the anguish, 

the misery of neglect..

Shivering, I cry shades of innuendoes

tears washing myself, away from me.


There was a time, not so long ago

a newborn had cried, scared of her surroundings.

A man held her with a certain strength

confused, but convinced that his girl was special!


I was shaken by a dream, Dad

shivering in agony, i wiped my sweat

I saw you slip in the darkness of the night

projecting the reflections of my own inceptions.


I felt a hand on by shoulder, a concerned sound

Can you blame me for being attracted

to someone who remind me of you, Dad?


I feel like a bird with a broken wing

ugly, unable to hold myself or fly

I feel trapped, reluctant to move

the fear that I'll fall, gripping my veins

I hide my truth, put up a brave face

but world, know that I die. day and again.


Today I met someone who held me tight

let me re-discover, forgive my fear

I realise I am scared, tired and alone

I realise I miss you and will always do.

I wont hold myself from the thought anymore, 

instead I'll clasp it tight and let myself grieve


I'll struggle, but i'll not fall! I promise

I'll stop letting my life slip away!

Thursday, April 26, 2018

love

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embrace love
even though it burns
seek it with dedication
for, through pain
you'll find paradise;
where the angels
with burning sword
wouldn't stop you!