Tuesday, September 6, 2011


photo courtesy: a friend 
(this poem is written from a girl's perspective)

you held me when i was low
showed me the beauty of the world 
stole colors from the rainbow
fuelled my dreams with it

the rain drops doesn't amuse me any more
bound by your love, i cant free myself
my screams went unheard in the darkness
the silence, the desolation is alarming

those mushy songs which kills me now
filled me with you when my days were green
your heartbeats made me feel secure
when i got suffocated within my walls

you held my hands, made me yours
promised to share your surname
what do i call myself today?
i forgot that i too had a name!

this smoke filled room reminds me of you
smothering, tears blurring my vision.
the smell of whiskey still lingers
the unfinished bottle thrown casually

with every passing day my life unfolds
my friends help me regain the trust
i loved you and i still do
but you went off when i told you not to

i pity you if you feel you've won over me
the wounds have only made me stronger
i would rise like a phoenix and i would stand
i trust my love, myself. i breathe.


Saru Singhal said...

Amazing work, love the profound thought and expression. Second last paragraph is too good...

Yamini Meduri said...

nicely written dear :)

Anil Sawan said...

Saru, Thank you :) your words mean much to me!

Anil Sawan said...

Yamini, you are always kind to me :)

Mishilicious Mishi said...

I loved every word of it..mind if I share it on my fb page?

and thankz for visiting my space..well sheerkhurma is made of sawiyan..kheer is something different..its made of rice:-)

Anil Sawan said...

Mishi, Thank you:)

You are free to share the link. ah, so sawiyan is the ingredient! i tried searching for it in google and i got the same image for both sawiyan and sheerkhurma, no wonder :P must be yummm!!!

Mishilicious Mishi said...

yeah they are very yummy! gosh em craving for them now;p thankz for following..how to follow you btw? I was looking for that tab some where on your page!

Anil Sawan said...

Mishi, you are tempting me :P i wud find a way to taste it soon :P

the tab you are searching for is hiding right below the "My Space" :P

Unknown said...

"your heartbeats made me feel secure
when i got suffocated within my walls"

good lines. :)

Vaisakhi said...

beautiful and exprssive write...loved the last 2 verses the most...:)

Anwesa said...

Dark. Hard-hitting.

P.S. : I came here after a long time :)

Angel said...

Wow ! your lines moved a reader , an honest revelation. first time here and i felt at home ! Seems i can relate . Writer thanks for signing in my very ordinary blog. More power to you ,God bless!

Anil Sawan said...

Aasiyah, thanks friend. Welcome here :)

Anil Sawan said...

vaisakhi, thts very kind of you. thank you :)

Anil Sawan said...

Anwesa, you have no idea how happy I am :) do come back often, colors missed you :)

Anil Sawan said...

Angel, thank you :)
yaar, every person is special, they are unique and so are their emotions. so never ever consider your blog ordinary, not in front of any one. its part you and you are special. appreciate your feelings, bless you.

Priya said...

"i would rise like a phoenix and i would stand
i trust my love, myself. i breathe."

Lovely lines...
I jst love reading you again and again..

Meety said...


Anil Sawan said...

Priya, thank you so much! your words mean a lot.

Anil Sawan said...

Sigsi, thnx dear :)

Anonymous said...

That was very interesting.. the way you have got into a woman's mind and written a poem..

Anil Sawan said...

Thanks Meera :)